Wild Life Of A Little Monster

Others are scared of me because of all the fun I have. Considered a vigilante by my Eponine.

A Little Fall Of Rain

"Don't you fret, M'sieur Marius
I don't feel any pain
A little fall of rain
Can hardly hurt me now
You're here, that's all I need to know
And you will keep me safe
And you will keep me close
And rain will make the flowers grow."


These words are from the first verse of a song from the musical "Les Miserables." Diva Kitty recently posted the entire words on her blog. Thank you! In November, I saw the musical once again during its "farewell tour." Read my little monster's reflections about that day. That also was the first day a bunny had commented on Ep's blog. Ep mused ... "just bowls and bowls and bowls full of moist food..." it makes me smile now just imagining!

Didn't go to work Tuesday and sat by my Eponine's side. I cried a bunch. Prayed, kissed her, stepped away for a moment and got angry, then came back to her side and comforted her. I wish I could have done more. Later in the afternoon I was next to her and said her name. I saw her little mouth move, but there was no sound. I said, "I love you." Her mouth again moved with no sound. Soon after, I knew my little monster was gone. I just pet her and cried. After a bit, I didn't know what to do but to vacuum since I hadn't (she HATED the vacuum) in more than two weeks. It no longer would scare her.

Am I sad? Oh my, yes. My head hurts from feeling overwhelmed and a bit alone. Orphaned. Learning of your loved ones greeting her provides much solace. I am so very happy she found me those 15-plus years ago and has allowed me to share a home with her. My blessings are many. I am the lucky one.

(Written by Eponine's Cowboy)

25 Comments:

At December 21, 2005 6:59 AM, Blogger Becca said...

I'm trying to type through tears. Rather difficult to explain at work. But you will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Now she has unlimited moist food, treats and fresh kitty crack. And I'm sure she'll be waiting for you to come scratch her ears when you meet up with her again.

Becca, Meeko, and Kiara

 
At December 21, 2005 7:35 AM, Blogger Edsel/The Pooch said...

oh Cowboy, we are so sorry. our precious ones have too few years to share with us, but oh what years they are! filled with nothing but respect, appreciation, caring and unconditional love. if only we could find the same from our fellow humans! Eppy is safe and warm and in a beam of sunshine and she will never know pain again. You eased her over gently and I know she thanks you with all her heart.
Edselsmom

 
At December 21, 2005 8:04 AM, Anonymous mkm1960 said...

I told Pookie, Puss and Boots my bridge kitties that a new friend was coming to them soon, and to watch out for Eponine at the bridge. Pookie said that she would make sure that everyone was there. Eppy is there now. All of our pets that have gone on before her will be with her until the day you join her. Eponine was a wonderful friend remember her in joy, you will be together again in the future forever.

Blessings to you Cowboy, you were a faithful friend to your beloved Eppy. I will pray for you.

Peace,

Mary Kay

 
At December 21, 2005 8:07 AM, Blogger Mia and Ghost said...

Cowboy, we are so sorry for your loss. We are saying our purrayers for you.

Mia, Ghost & Jen

 
At December 21, 2005 9:10 AM, Blogger Rahel said...

Cowboy, I'm so sorry for your loss. You gave Eponine a good life with lots of love and care. May her memory, and your love for her, be blessed.

 
At December 21, 2005 10:17 AM, Blogger Meg said...

DD-
Thinking of you and Eppy. So sorry for your loss, but know that she is keeping an eye on you.
Meg

 
At December 21, 2005 11:20 AM, Blogger Kat said...

Cowboy,
I'm so sorry. I love reading your... I mean Eponine's posts. I've read from almost the beginning. It's one of the few blogs I check regularly and look forward to.
I know how much she means to you. Please know that I am thinking of you and praying for you.

 
At December 21, 2005 11:36 AM, Blogger Diva Kitty said...

Sleep well sweet Eponine.

 
At December 21, 2005 12:25 PM, Anonymous Sue said...

I was only just introduced to Eponine's blog a couple of days ago, and now my heart is heavy with you.

What a fine little friend ....

 
At December 21, 2005 12:46 PM, Blogger Patches & Mittens said...

I too just visited Eponine's blog and read what a darling puss she was. She will be welcomed to Rainbow Bridge with open paws, free to play in the green grass and bask in the never ending sunshine. Thinking of you....

 
At December 21, 2005 1:28 PM, Anonymous William's mom said...

Cowboy, you did something very special for her. What more do we all want but be safe and warm and comforted and loved when we go...and you gave all of that to Eponine. And know that her last silent words to you were her thanksgiving and love for having you in her life.

 
At December 21, 2005 1:49 PM, Blogger craziequeen said...

You were a good pappy to Sweet Eponine, Cowboy.

Pandy and Charlie send skritches.

Echo, Ambrose, Spook and Polly will be waiting at the Bridge for Eponine.

cq

 
At December 21, 2005 3:51 PM, Blogger mog said...

Eppy is a blessed kitty to have you with her when she crossed over the bridge, loved the whole time. Typing thru tears sucks. She'll be waiting at the bridge for you when you cross. You will be together again.

 
At December 21, 2005 7:39 PM, Blogger Derby said...

Goodnight Sweet Princess.

 
At December 21, 2005 8:08 PM, Blogger Sanjee said...

Blessings to your sweet spirit on its new journey, Eponine.

And blessings to you, Cowboy. *hugs and purrs* for the tears.

Love,
Sanjee, Boni, Mini and Robyn (aka their bean Mom)

 
At December 22, 2005 1:30 PM, Blogger PJ said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.
Saying good-bye is the hardest thing of all.

 
At December 22, 2005 2:57 PM, Anonymous Jeff said...

I am also sorry to hear of your loss. I understand no words can help ease the pain, so I won't try, but at least you know in your heart that you and Eponine shared a wonderful slice of time together.

 
At December 22, 2005 5:16 PM, Blogger Chatham said...

Oh, my, I am crying. I am so sorry. I am glad that Eponine is no longer suffering; sorry that you suffer in her absence.

 
At December 22, 2005 5:56 PM, Blogger MEC said...

Eponine had a good life because of your love, and she knew that you loved her and took care of her.

 
At December 23, 2005 3:32 PM, Blogger one of us said...

Oh so sorry cowboy on your loss of little Eponine. It is so hard when one of our best friends pass over the Rainbow Bridge. I hope my little Nicci and Gandi and Salsa are there to great her and give her a good chase (they are rats). Once again so sorry for your very real loss of your loved one. ~Poi Rats, Cats and Mom

 
At December 23, 2005 5:13 PM, Anonymous tammara said...

Cowboy, I had to let you know how much the story of you and Eponine meant to me. I lost my 17-yr-old Heather - also a grey tabby - in March. She became so thin, and finally did not eat, not even baby food. At 3.5 lbs, she lived a few more days on just water from a dropper, but mostly on love alone. I was holding her when she died. I'm not a crying sorta person, but I cried my eyes out, and every now and then, I still have to, just a little bit. You are a wonderful person; you were a wonderful friend, and I know Eppy adored you. May you have moments of peace in your grief.

 
At January 07, 2006 8:23 PM, Anonymous The Good Cats said...

Adding our sympathies for your loss. Try to remember the good times... and may they help comfort you.

 
At January 14, 2006 7:37 PM, Anonymous oscarwondercat said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a loved family member is so very hard. I should know - I have gone through it more than most people should have at my age (human and furry ones both). She was an amazing cat and so very loved - You gave her that. I am so proud of her, and so very proud of you. Take care - we are thinking of you (Oscar and Oscar's Mum and Dad).

 
At January 15, 2006 3:27 PM, Blogger Eponine's Cowboy said...

Thanks so much for your comments, Good Cats and Oscar. It means much to me. I still miss her very much. I don't think I had any idea how much she really "owned" me. I always thought she was following me around every day, but now I know I actually was the one paying more attention to her than it was she watching me.

 
At August 26, 2010 11:00 PM, Blogger Eponine's Cowboy said...

Read this post again tonight. I often still miss Eponine ... but missed her again tonight. Thanks again to all of you for the support you provided.

 

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